gift

it is a gift of God to be able to laugh at something each day and to learn something new each day. to experience a sense of lightness and to experience a sense of wonder yet another time. thank you God for this gift you bestow on me daily.

sometimes i hate my patients

i was so angry with myself today. So so so so angry. Cuz I was so stupid. Sigh. What was i thinking.

Spun hard at the gym as a result. Reminded me of the last time i went for punching classes when i was angry and bruised my knuckles punching my anger out. Today I nearly killed my legs and heart spinning at top resistance. But at least it worked.

Now I need to pray to let go, to let peace fill my heart again, and to forgive that manipulative person out there.

Not easy, but spinning's not easy too, but i did it and i am the stronger for it.

if my memory serves me right

Yeah. If my memory serves me right...

... I think I was supposed to work so that I can eat (i.e. feed myself).

I don't think I was supposed to work so that I won't eat (i.e. be unable to eat a proper lunch because there's a ton of work to be done... it's a toss-up between skipping lunch and going home 12 hours after stepping into the damn hospital... at least if i do work during lunch, i get to go home 11 hours after stepping into the damn hospital).

hmmm. HMMMMMM.

i thank God for...

... a refreshing break this week. Learning new things, learning from some quite interesting people from around the world...

... and having my little bit of time each day in the morning to catch up on my neglected but dear piece of work.

i savour this week.

the zebra crossing

It scares me to realise that more and more frequently, as I cross the zebra crossing to work nowadays, i catch myself thinking... it might be a nice idea to get knocked down, so that i can get some rest.

Then I scold myself and tell myself not to be silly.

Being overwhelmed does crazy things to the mind, doesn't it.

Psalm 57:7 My heart is confident in you, O God; my heart is confident. No wonder I can sing your praises!

absurdly happy

Jesus promised
His disciples three things:
that they would be

completely fearless,
absurdly happy, and
in constant trouble.

- FK Maltby

it sucks...

... to run a half marathon and then be on soft diet because of a sore throat, which is developing into a full-blown cold, with runny nose and all. i'm supposed to be reloading the good food into my battered body now, not surviving on the fish soup and porridge!

but for now, i just hope i can be well enough to actually go church camp this week... and try all that malacca food!